It's been four years and I still look for his nic in pal. He left behind memories that will forever be remembered. He taught me a lot about true friendship.

I remember when we first met. He pmed me and said so simply...."hold me closer tiny dancer".....and that was the beginning of a beautiful relationship.

We talked everyday and shared each others lives. His family was my family and my family was his. Bad times, good times, it didn't matter we were like two peas in a pod. When Shauna called my world came crashing down. She had found him in the bedroom lying on the bed. The squad was on the way but she knew he was gone. And even though Alan knew he was dying and we talked about it on many occasions, it didn't make it any easier.

That last year he went to as many jams as he could. He even made it a point to come and visit me and my kids in Ohio. It totally exhausted him but he did what he wanted to do before his death.

He wanted everyone to have good memories. He wanted to leave behind his imprint. And I do believe anyone who ever knew him has that.

He was my best friend.
He was a proud Father.
He was a loving husband.
He was a friend to many.
He was a musician.
He was a dreamer.

He loved to surprise you.(his specialty)
And he loved his friends on Pal.
He would find time or make time for someone in need.
He loved Poon.
He loved to laugh and make you laugh.
He loved football....(Roll Tide!!!!!!!)
He loved and hated to drink.
He loved finding unusual meaningful songs.
He loved sour things.
He loved to talk on the phone.
He loved his cat.
He loved Christmas.
He loved watching comedy...

I could go on and on...


I want to enclose the words to a song that he wanted played at his funeral.. I play this almost daily when writing e-mails...it makes me feel close to him and I believe that's what he intended it to do...

Over mountains over trees...
Over oceans over seas...
Across the deserts, I'll be there...


In a whisper on the wind..
On the smile of a new friend..
Just think of me...and I'll be there..


Don't be afraid oh my love...
I'll be watching you from above..
And I give all the world tonight
to be with you...
Cuz I'm on your side and I still care
I may have died but I've gone nowhere
.. Just think of me and I'll be there...


On the edge of a waking dream..
Over rivers...over streams..
Through wind and rain..
I'll be there...


Across the wide and open sky...
Thousands of miles I'll fly..
To be with you...
I'll be there...


Don't be afraid oh my love...
I'll be watching you from above..
And I give all the world tonight
to be with you...
Cuz I'm on your side and I still care
I may have died but I've gone nowhere
.. Just think of me and I'll be there...
Just think of me and I'll be there...
.

In the breath of a wind that sighs...
Oh..theres no need to cry..
Just think of me...and I'll be there...


Don't be afraid oh my love...
I'll be watching you from above..
And I give all the world tonight
to be with you...
Cuz I'm on your side and I still care
I may have died but I've gone nowhere..
Just think of me and I'll be there...
Just think of me and I'll be there.....
think of me....I'll be there....

( I'll be there.....Escape Club)

Love you Alan............Genna (tinydancer)

Than-na-toes was what I called him or Thann. I sure do miss him; He was always nice to me. Even though I struggled to get my voice and had such an awful time with the guitar (sorry you all had to listen to my learning the guitar).

When Thann died I think I was in shock and Poon was too. Thannatos was always the peace maker telling me to forgive and be understanding. The ever supportive smiley Thann.

I even met him at Troubadours house at a jam. I had no idea who he was. We met online before the jam and became fast friends...and I was looking foreword to meeting him but....
At the jam Mr Smiley kept telling me his nick name or his real name and I had no idea for hours who he was and he would just follow me around standing in front of me smiling. I think Klarice had just cut his hair. I was totally freaked out. I was talking to someone and I said there is this guy following me I don’t know who it is ....
and he is smiling this huge perma smile. and I turned around and there he was.

Thann was a good person if you didn’t know him you missed a beam of sunshine. Mr. Optomistic. That’s what Thann was to me. He was so young, I’m sure his family misses him more. I suppose he went on ahead of Poon to break the ice. I'll miss you guys but I imagine there is a big JAMM in heaven...

miss yah Thann, deb

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